…All
eyes were on me as Philile, the pastor’s wife, said, “Jessica, do you have a
message to share with the group?” I
opened my Bible, began to talk, and the words just began pouring out. It was so surreal, like I wasn’t even the one
talking anymore…because I wasn’t.
Probably more than any other time in my life, the Holy Spirit was simply
speaking through me.
Suddenly
words and insights came from my mouth, in a more articulate way than I ever
talk when I come prepared. I was concise
and to the point (very unusual)! Not
having the burden of explaining my thoughts was so relieving as God’s thoughts
breezed straight past my brain and out through my mouth. I wasn’t even in control of what I was saying
anymore. I’ve experienced this while
praying before, but never just while talking to people. It was like how Paul says in 1 Corinthians
14:14 “For if I pray in a tongue, my spirit prays, but my mind is
unfruitful.” That same way, when I was
talking to the women, my spirit (A.K.A. God’s spirit) was speaking, but my mind
was virtually unfruitful. So weird!
After I
finished, Philile just stared at me, then finally she uttered, “I am shocked
and amazed.” It was all I could do to
just stare back at her, not saying anything, because I felt like a physical
rush had just come out of me. Then
Philile told me how that morning God been telling her the exact thing that I
had just spoken. And it was so bizarre
because as she told me what God had spoken to her, I recognized it as what I
had just said. Also, it was awesome
because the verse Psalm 84:5-6 “Blessed are those whose strength is in You, who
have set their hearts on pilgrimage. As
they pass through the Valley of Baca (tears), they make it a place of springs;
the autumn rains also cover it with pools of blessings” talked about being in a
valley, and Philile had literally been walking through a valley when God spoke
over her heart that same message He had just spoken aloud to her through me.
This was probably the most
incredible experience I’ve ever had with words coming out of my mouth. I just wish I could always trust God to be
the one talking through me so it could stop being me speaking my own words. But I was so stoked that He chose to speak to
Philile through me in this instance that I was totally unprepared! He received full credit because it was so
obviously Him speaking, and not me.
